Wow...was all I had to say after I read this the first time around. I'm sure SO many people could relate to this poem. The sheer momentum, constant questioning, and descriptave imagery pain such a vivid picture of confusion. We're so blessed that the answer to all these questions is Jesus Christ and He'll always deliver us from our struggles! How faithful our Lord is!
James 1: 2-4
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1: 2-4
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
A Silent Storm
My belly was churning
My head felt sick
My life was spiraling
I had to think quick
Who could I call?
Who could help me fight?
When I'm about to fall
Into the clutches of the night
Wait what would I say?
Could I ever explain it?
Could I stand the blank stares?
Should I expose my fears?
I'm tossing and turning
My feet feel so heavy
I'm trying to press forward
This all seems so awkward
So I send up a smoke signal internally
Im screaming and shouting "Help Me! Save me!"
i can't explain
My secret shame
My inward pain
My heart's strain
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I want to be all that I can be
Deep inside I know God wants to use me
But my flesh has launched an all out attack
Insecurity and guilt now ride my back
Can I ever
Will I ever
Find my way back home
Out of the place...this zone
Im trying to speak I'm opening my mouth
Where are the words? Nothing's coming out
Sigh
Ok here goes, here's my moment to be free
I want to blurt it out but my heart condemns me
So I say it again
To yet another friend
Pray for me
I'm at my wit's end
I need strength for things I cannot dare say
Cause your eyes of condemnation will do me a way
I really want to move
But there's a mountain in my way
Ive been chipping at it you know day by day
But nothing's getting better, I feel sick
The SOS is out, Lord come quick
hello where is God?
Is this judgment
Why isn't he coming?
Is this...punishment?
How did I get here, to this forbidden place
Where I feel like such a violator of God's abundant grace
Its raining its pouring
When is it going to stop?
My hands are shaking, heart's racing, spirit's failing, i'm sinking
Pop!
Im so tired, so disappointed in myself
For allowing my flesh to win
When Jesus won the victory
For my struggles, guilt and sin
I've made a decision, I will not back down
The devil is a liar, my Jesus wears the crown
I am not a bastard child
I hear the Spirit wooing me
Wait! does that mean he still wants me?
Do I still have use?
I'm looking up through blinding tears
There's a dim light ahead
The Lord now arrests my fears
There's a place to rest my head
He's looking past my faults again
Now he's stopped the rain
He's cleansing my mind,
He's healing my heart
The confusion suddenly stops
He's speaking once again
I saw you in your pain
The breaking of your heart
I Know the battles of this world
Try to pull us apart
TRUST ME
I need to purify you
Purge you through and through
So you could bring glory to Me
As a real life testimony
Of a struggling Christian set free!
~Korene Crawford.
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